I know I shouldn’t feel this way because you did me dirty, but I can’t help myself from missing you. More than I probably should. I don’t think my mind has fully grasped the situation yet. It doesn’t hit me until I’m laying in my bed at the end of the day wishing you were here. There’s such an ugly feeling inside me & I want it gone. I’m torn between waiting for you to contact me so we can work it out & wanting nothing to do with you. I know I shouldn’t feel this way but I feel like you NEED to be in my life.